The Kill
what if i wanted to break
laugh it all off in your face
what would you do?
what if i fell to the floor
couldn't take all this anymore
what would you do?
i tried to be someone else
but nothing seemed to change
i know now, this is who i really am inside
falling from myself
falling for a chance
i know now, this is who i really am
kill
break me down
bury me, bury me
i am finished with you
look in my eyes
you're killing me, killing me
all I wanted was you
Thursday, August 04, 2005
-3:10 AM
haven't been doing this for awhile now. a little update on the past few erm.. days. been doing nothing but try to convert/rip/edit videos from dvd. for ndp that is. nothing fantastic, but i've learnt a hell lot about dvds, .vob-s, mpeg-2 etc. well, i couldn't have learnt that from anywhere else because if couldn't be fucked to. it's not part of me to learn about dvds because they cost too much, but well, at least now i do know a little. ...and ripping! more tools to add to my already growing library.
i've just gotten hold of the mystikal marilyn manson dvd that comes only with the uncensored version of the golden age of grotesque album. what can i say? it's just a collection of manson mtvs with 3 extra clips i've never seen before. not too bad. his experimental video and his making-of-mobscene clip was quite... something. i admire him. without any prior knowledge of films, video or music he has managed to pull it off quite nicely. nice work manson.
also, on the topic of film and vids, i've just hooked up with jacq from trinity television while ripping dvds from beta tapes (using a really weird dvd recorder - panasonic) and for 5 hours, all we did was sit and talk... and i was made to do a v.o. for some stupid program they're gonna air in the states. of course, i did it for free because it was just a small time thing. ...and guess what? if i play my cards right, i might just land myself a job at sound engineering! sweet stuff 'innit? oh well, of course... then i'm just dreaming but it could happen if everything goes well. 'nuff said and done.. altho' this ndp has been quite a bitch.. i've hooked up with people that i've never thought to be talking to. and well, it's cool to build up some contacts here and there that is. my pathetic phone has suddenly been storing numbers till it's running low on space. sad. well, that's it for you! fucking saf. no camera phones and all that bullshit... now i'm stuck with a fucked phone 'cause i can't upgrade. dig this! i've the money, but i can't buy the phone i want! it's like having the pan o' pizza in front of you but you can't eat it. (for those of you who prefer something else, imagine your favorite food and put it in the same context) sad life. thank god it ain't gonna last forever if not, i'll probably kill myself. i wonder how those regulars live with themselves.
and now.. for much needed sleep. as you noticed. i haven't been blogging so late (or rather) haven't been blogging at all for awhile now. so yeah.. one more thing to note..
yuzo koshiro is god! (until i find a better 'god') he's managed to fuse the perfect blend of techno, trance and euro-dance together. who is he? well.. for those shinobi people.. he's the one who composed the ost to super shinobi.. and for the boy racers among you.. he recently did the ost for midnight maximum tune 2. yeah, that stupid racing game you see in the arcades. it's a dumb game but the ost is fucking, i repeat.. FUCKING excellent! of course, as with all albums, not all trax are good.. but this is one album i don't mind buying if i can find it here. it's quite a buy (depending on the price) and something worth listening to.
out.