(they're all guys, if you're wondering)

haven't been here for a long long time now. there's so much things to say, but not enough energy to. the past weeks have been totally screwed up. fucked up. puked out and eaten back in and shat out. one word: bad. too much work, too hectic and i've haven't had time for myself. no time to sit down, have a good cup of tea (without something at the back of my head buggin me) and smoke a happy cigarette. fucked.

amidst all that shit though, i found time to go shopping for my helloween shite. although it's not gonna be anything fancy (actually, it's gonna be damn normal for me) i'm still excited! cause i haven't been doing that outfit for a damn long time now. as usual, what i wear is always dictated by what i'm listening to.. and i'm currently digging dope stars inc! well.. i was diggin them about a year ago, but recently i've managed to grab hold of their neuromance lp and the craze is back! woohooo~ gothic electro punk. hell yeah... pictures will be posted once i'm done with the entire outfit. adrian's going as some jedi.. anakin i think. he made his own light sabre! good lord! i didn't think he'd do it, but he did! and what fine style did he emerge from! sweet stuff. wil's gonna be stealing my trenchcoat but i've absolutely no idea what he's gonna try and pull off.

draft 3 of the soundtrack for 'smell of rain' was also recently done and posted to glo. hopefully it works for her. i wanna work on something else already! i've so much plans for the soundscape!

and atop of it all.. the icing of the cake.. about 4 days left till the whole bulk of work is done and i can finally breathe.. again. videos after videos after videos. but finally it's gonna be over! and i'll be disappearing from the army for about... 2 months? maybe more.. i'm intending to give a 5 month disappearing act. just like a ninja. i've done a 4 months mc before. but this is different. this is gonna be a 5-6 months straight disappearance. minus all the shitty duties that the fat fucking toad has planned out. but hell yeah! 5-6. and then i'll be down to? ..hmm....4 months? yeah.. 4 months. and then i'll disappear from this hellhole for 7 weeks as i trudge back to that hellish island and then back for 2 months to clear my leave-s and shit. sweet stuff! i can almost smell freedom!

..and my exhaust pipe. so close yet so far. but fucking hell, i'll get there. i swear it on my blood. i'll get there. 1 car, 1 free life, 1 cd-lp, 1 great fucking career. all in chronological order.

let's look to the stars and die tonight, my darling.