The Kill
what if i wanted to break
laugh it all off in your face
what would you do?
what if i fell to the floor
couldn't take all this anymore
what would you do?
i tried to be someone else
but nothing seemed to change
i know now, this is who i really am inside
falling from myself
falling for a chance
i know now, this is who i really am
kill
break me down
bury me, bury me
i am finished with you
look in my eyes
you're killing me, killing me
all I wanted was you
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
-9:19 PM
dealt the tarot of death to me today.
doesn't really matter because i was never invited to your party anyway.
sold my eyes for a gun to kill my soul.
sold my tongue so i can swallow you whole.
i'm paranoid.
somehow i know you're gonna leave someday.
so why not we just end it today?
with a gun in hand,
wine bottle in the other.
i promise to cut you up,
like heaven torn asunder.
Aren't there times when you just wanna fuck everything up? Everything that you're working at, your dreams, your goals, a good job, money, chasing the skirt of the girl you like etc. and something just comes along and hits you- why not just fuck everything up, blow everything out of proportion in one grand, swift motion of decadence. sounds like fun doesn't it? the only thing to follow as quick as the adrenaline are the repurcussions. i guess that's what stops most people from doing it. i guess i can't exactly blow EVERYTHING up. certain things i guess. the parts that don't include my money and my future career, perhaps. yes.
sounds like fun. and then once again, i put on the mask. that shell. because, as immature as you might wanna think it is, it's time for another change. it's time to shed my skin. again.
underworld evolution is quite frankly, the worst movie i've seen this year. date movie is at least funny, tho stupid. but still funny. underworld evolution's gotta be the dumbest. worst than the first and by far, the worst sequel i've seen. i thank god i didn't have to pay to watch it. ...tho the character markus is actually quite cool... and like most of the guys i know, i wish i really had wings to fly.. ...and to kill. sad huh? (do i hear someone screaming 'grow up'? ....well fuck you too asshole. everyone's a kid one way or another.)
..and once more, the same quote because it seems to make me feel better every fucking time:
"..i've got a 'f' and 'c' and i've got a 'k' too. the only thing that's missing is a bitch like 'u'. you wanted perfect, you got your perfect. now i'm too perfect for someone like you.." - marilyn manson, (s)aint
