the past days have been weird.. too weird. was talking to dad few days earlier about me not going clubbing for the past few months and suddenly out of nowhere, fri and sat was @ double o and momo respectively and just yesterday was @ muddy murphy's (where i had one drink too many).. and almost again tonight @ devil's bar. thank god i managed to resist. haha! with the excuse of 'going to camp tmrw' thing. yeah i wanted to go, but i hate the idea of having not enough sleep because for real.. i have to head back to camp tmrw. then again, if i didn't have to go to camp.. i'd be @ zouk (for reasons known only to me). this has to stop.. it has to.

and i cannot believe i started talking to this girl @ the candy shop @ millenia walk. and it wasn't helping with the rest of my friends asking me to get her number. once again.. resistance! as with buying chocolates and sweets. oh thank god... the only downside of it is that i missed the opportunity to get to know a girl @ a candy shop which i very well could get cheap or free candy... fuck!

i'm on my way to hell.. i'm smoking too much and i'm running out of cigarettes. again.

(candles raze my desire.. no more meaning to my life.. no more reason to stay)

(i've had enough.. i'm turning into the animal i don't wanna be)