The Kill
what if i wanted to break
laugh it all off in your face
what would you do?
what if i fell to the floor
couldn't take all this anymore
what would you do?
i tried to be someone else
but nothing seemed to change
i know now, this is who i really am inside
falling from myself
falling for a chance
i know now, this is who i really am
kill
break me down
bury me, bury me
i am finished with you
look in my eyes
you're killing me, killing me
all I wanted was you
Thursday, May 11, 2006
-7:03 AM
i left the console for a little hiatus for better ideas later on (and also to wait for a 3.2gb collection of trance stuff to finish downloading), and somehow i always end up 'hunting'. it's been an interesting few days...
i know i shouldn't. and i know it's wrong. but oh well.. my eyes landed on one of the most beautiful things i've ever seen since back in my poly days. yes, one of the most beautiful things i've ever seen. her smile.. gorgeous. her eyes.. stunning. and god! she seems to have ivory skin.. don't really have a killer body, but who the fuck cares about that when you could be staring into her eyes all day. beautiful name too (with a ring to it as well..) and for the first time, i actually had the courage to ask. wow. there's always first times huh.. i was shaking in my shoes while even thinking about it, but oh well, it wasn't meant to be. she's attached.. (haha. i should really listen to all those nagging thoughts in my head) and i didn't really want to gun for it though. i know deep down inside, i should really be focusing on the task at hand.
like an angel, with fluffy white wings. like the first sunrise of the day, beautiful and untainted. who am i to defile such a beautiful creature? and somehow, i melted into that lovely gaze. but all it can be, is just.. a beautiful.. memory.
she's probably lying anyways.. about the attached thing. oh well.. girls. fine fine, i ain't fucking good looking so what the fuck.
this is to remind myself to always listen to those thoughts in my head. (GIVE IT UP.)
pictures come later.. tired. fuck this shit.
