The Kill
what if i wanted to break
laugh it all off in your face
what would you do?
what if i fell to the floor
couldn't take all this anymore
what would you do?
i tried to be someone else
but nothing seemed to change
i know now, this is who i really am inside
falling from myself
falling for a chance
i know now, this is who i really am
kill
break me down
bury me, bury me
i am finished with you
look in my eyes
you're killing me, killing me
all I wanted was you
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
-12:29 AM
listening: ferry corsten feat. guru - junk (flashover remix)
...haven't been here in awhile, but oddly enough this place still seems familiar. many things have changed since i last came back here. many, and perhaps just a little too much.
now i can honestly say that these days when i look myself in the mirror, i wonder what i've become - the very person that i've feared the most. i guess that the saying is true: you become the man you fear. i can vouch for every word in there.
cold, emotionless, control-freak, unfeeling, money-grabbing, speed crazy etc. you name it, i've got it. oh don't forget the fact that i'm actually a lot more addicted to caffeine and nicotine.
but i've gotten good things as well... and for what it's worth, if everything goes well, i should be well on way to becoming a 'yuppie'. and right about now, spending on anything with 2 digits don't require much thought. (although i still stinge for the bigger things in life which is soon to come). but yes, i meant every word when i said - don't require much thought. it feels good but scary. i don't know why... but yeah.. scary.
all in all, things are going perfect. and i truly hope to god that it keeps going upward. yes everything, 'cept for the girlfriend dept. but i'm not too concerned about that right now, considering the fact that i've just seen a touch of evil from the feminine psyche. possessive, selfish, conceited, naggy, loud, unreasonable, materialistic. the list goes on... i don't need all those in my life right now. actually, i don't think i'll ever need them at all...
so here i go with a big: FUCK YOU to all the females out there who think that guys should bow down to you, let you be the unruly bitches you are and let you have it your way because you're having 'pms' or just because you're a female and we males should 'understand'. no more mr. nice guy. no more.
go back to sewers from where you spawned from. trash.
....allow me to quote from someone that, perhaps is the oddest person to quote from or mention right now... mr satpal singh.
"all girls need to do is sit there and look pretty. everytime they want something, all they need to do is spread their legs and guys will just give them anything they want."
somehow, it's sad but true. it happens to most girls and guys respectively.
and fuck that whole feminism shit. seriously. if you girls wanna be independent, stay that way. if you bitches wanna be pampered, then open your fucking golden mouth (and cunt) and say so. we don't read minds. it's hard to second guess. you can't have the cake and eat it. it's either one way or the other....
....did i sound angry? angsty? i'm sure i did. however, i'm almost on my knees right now thanking god that all of the above didn't happen to me. i just witnessed it first-hand. and it sure as hell is making me loathe the general female population even more.
