The Kill
what if i wanted to break
laugh it all off in your face
what would you do?
what if i fell to the floor
couldn't take all this anymore
what would you do?
i tried to be someone else
but nothing seemed to change
i know now, this is who i really am inside
falling from myself
falling for a chance
i know now, this is who i really am
kill
break me down
bury me, bury me
i am finished with you
look in my eyes
you're killing me, killing me
all I wanted was you
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
-10:43 PM
listening:
feeder - yesterday went too soon
ronan keating - iris
snow patrol - chasing cars
周杰倫 - 白色風車
"wish i could show you... wish you could see through my eyes. tomorrow shines through. but i'm missing yesterday."
it's been a crazy few months since your arrival. with emotions similar to that of the fluctuating stock-market. the highs have been higher-than-heaven and the lows are right down in hell. there's just so much to say in so little time that i have with you. and yet... everytime i'm with you, i always get lost in those bright eyes and all i want to do is to hold you close. the words 'carpe diem' ring out so loudly but somehow, time just doesn't seem enough.
and as unsure as i am, i'm still fighting. fighting for what i believe in. and perhaps it may seem like a futile effort, but i'm gonna die trying. because everytime i see you smile, there's a sunrise in 'what's left of my heart'. and i feel the warmth.
yes, indeed. it's been awhile since i felt this way. too long. for years, i've lived under the belief that i don't have to have another. well... it's worked for this long. until the day you touched my heart. and strange as it is, it melted.
and now here we are, standing at the crossroads... where everything seems dark and blurry. all i can guarantee you is that i'm gonna be there. i want to be there. and although the road ahead is gonna be one hell of a ride, i want to be holding your hand and walking through it. whatever that comes, we'll handle it together. wind, rain and fire... whatever it may be. we'll deal with it. as a unit... as one.
i can hear you ask: why? is it worth it?
and i'll just say that: yes. it is worth it. because of those 3 words, which have been said too much... by all the wrong people who mean all the wrong things.
because... i love you.
that's why.
"i need your grace, to remind me... to find my own."
