The Kill
what if i wanted to break
laugh it all off in your face
what would you do?
what if i fell to the floor
couldn't take all this anymore
what would you do?
i tried to be someone else
but nothing seemed to change
i know now, this is who i really am inside
falling from myself
falling for a chance
i know now, this is who i really am
kill
break me down
bury me, bury me
i am finished with you
look in my eyes
you're killing me, killing me
all I wanted was you
Monday, March 12, 2007
-9:57 PM
listening:
apocalyptica - faraway
apocalyptica - romance
...it hurts so much i can even feel my heart stop. i hear those words, i see that look in those eyes. and still, there's no one to blame but the situation. it has left me speechless. without a word, only a throbbing pain in my heart, and a silent tear in my eye. yes, even i'm amazed. i actually teared. and nothing followed me, except for those silent footsteps that echoed off the asphalt pavement, and the smoke which blew out from lips that once kissed you.
but still i know this stress is something you don't need. and all i can do is to continue to give you support.
i'm sorry but i just feel second-classed. that my decisions depend only on the decisions that others make.
i just wish i had a bottle of absinthe to drown out the hurt.
and after so long of fighting, you still feel so close, yet so far.
i guess i just need a little assurance. but my promise still remains... still here with you, rain or shine. and i keep moving on, and only god knows why.
fuck, i feel so useless. i feel so pathetic... i can't do anything about it. i can't make you feel any better than you are feeling now. i can't wipe away the tears from your eyes. i can't hug you and tell you everything's gonna be ok. all i can do is stare at the cellphone and wait for your call. all i can do is hope that you still remember how much i feel for you... and still there are a ton of things waiting for me settle but i can't do jack-shit about it. god damn me.
