The Kill
what if i wanted to break
laugh it all off in your face
what would you do?
what if i fell to the floor
couldn't take all this anymore
what would you do?
i tried to be someone else
but nothing seemed to change
i know now, this is who i really am inside
falling from myself
falling for a chance
i know now, this is who i really am
kill
break me down
bury me, bury me
i am finished with you
look in my eyes
you're killing me, killing me
all I wanted was you
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
-11:55 AM
it hurts so much that i can barely hold a thought or type properly. and yet there are so many things just waiting to be done.
the question is: why does it hurt that much?
is it the thought of my girlfriend seeing someone new? is it because i know somehow that there could be a possibility that it could slip away? yes that's it. the possibility of it slipping away. and i know i've fallen further than i'd ever let myself.
so what now? where do we go from here?
i don't know. i'm lost. at a circumstance like this... it just leaves me speechless. to say that she shouldn't see someone new would be too totalitarian. to say she should would make me crumble and break.
we'll let nature take it's course then. maybe i shouldn't have put in so much. but maybe it's too late for me already.
