The Kill
what if i wanted to break
laugh it all off in your face
what would you do?
what if i fell to the floor
couldn't take all this anymore
what would you do?
i tried to be someone else
but nothing seemed to change
i know now, this is who i really am inside
falling from myself
falling for a chance
i know now, this is who i really am
kill
break me down
bury me, bury me
i am finished with you
look in my eyes
you're killing me, killing me
all I wanted was you
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
-2:04 AM
so today is the day when i turn 24. frankly, i've feeling 24 since 2 years ago...
and now i feel older, much older than that.
the feeling is cold. daunting. the weight of the world on your shoulders.
many say that i'm young. that i should be enjoying my youth.
well, i think i lost my youth to the winds many moons ago.
isn't life just grand?
not many ppl remember my birthday, and it's a good thing too. i don't wish for anything
big. just the people i love and care for around me.
finally the FV ppl have gotten back to me and with it, more stress. if this goes thru,
it'll be the first tvc that i've produced. nothing too great, but still it's a load of cash.
at a time like this, many things run thru my head. and one of them being the future.
what's in store? will my career pick up? will my relationship go on? will my life be
smooth? i dun have the answers. i never did.
ppl always say that birthdays are meant to be celebrated to mark your existence on
earth for one more year. of course, things have indeed changed since last year.
why, i can't remember last year's birthday. perhaps i've locked myself up for too long
you think?
well, however much i try, it'll never be enough. however much i cheong, it'll never be
good enough. why? because i'm never contented.
it's a sad truth i need to face and i don't think i'll ever walk on this earth knowing that
i've got it all....
...just another day of plain old, cold, metal.
