The Kill
what if i wanted to break
laugh it all off in your face
what would you do?
what if i fell to the floor
couldn't take all this anymore
what would you do?
i tried to be someone else
but nothing seemed to change
i know now, this is who i really am inside
falling from myself
falling for a chance
i know now, this is who i really am
kill
break me down
bury me, bury me
i am finished with you
look in my eyes
you're killing me, killing me
all I wanted was you
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
-12:15 PM
nobody knows
another song plays on and on across the radio
reminding me of days that feel so long ago
when I was young I had no one to play the part of me
I learned the hard way how to find myself it's why i'm here alone
it's been so long since i've been home i lost a part of me
I have to find myself that's why i'm here alone
nobody knows
it's taken a life time for me to see
theres no one to blame nobody but me
nobody knows nobody knows what lies in front of me
I have to face the world and live my life alone
nobody knows nobody knows what lies in front of me
thats why I find myself alone nobody knows
another song plays on and on across the radio
reminding me i'm still alone
perhaps it's true that i'm bound to walk this streets alone. the plain, simple
fact being that i destroy everything i touch. i hate the way i am. i cannot be at peace
with the person i have become. but there isn't any turning back for me is there?
no one knows. and sometimes i wish someone would know.
i was once happy. i was once someone that could look at the sky and say, what
a beautiful world this is. after 6 years, all that's left is a cynical, broken boy.
yes i wish things didn't turn out the way they did. i wish we could still be happy and
pretend that nothing on god's green earth can stand between us. i still want to kiss
you and hold you and call you my baby... but it sure seems that we're fighting a losing
battle. nothing seems to be working out whichever way we turn. and all i can hope
is that you'll find your happiness somewhere else. because only when you smile, will
i smile.
i wish you happiness. i wish you smiles. i wish for your skies to never turn grey.
only in a secret, untamed world, can we be lovers. only in my memory, can we be
who we really want to be.
"you were my heart, you were my soul, you were my breath till i grow old. you were
my blood, you were my bones.."
even as i type.. i hear you laughing. i hope that you'll continue laughing. i hope you'll
continue smiling. it's time those tears end. leave the crying to me.
i'll cry enough for the both of us.
