The Kill
what if i wanted to break
laugh it all off in your face
what would you do?
what if i fell to the floor
couldn't take all this anymore
what would you do?
i tried to be someone else
but nothing seemed to change
i know now, this is who i really am inside
falling from myself
falling for a chance
i know now, this is who i really am
kill
break me down
bury me, bury me
i am finished with you
look in my eyes
you're killing me, killing me
all I wanted was you
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
-6:44 PM
The Roads are Winding
i feel lost. and although there are people out there who think that they
know me, but honestly they don't. no one knows how exactly how i'm
feeling.
perhaps alot of people will look upon this, upon me and think that i'm
probably very fortunate. very lucky. well, to be honest, it sucks to be
in this. yes, i'm savoring a bit of fame. people like me, they like what
i've created, and for once, i'm 'a little' celebrated. i should be happy but
i'm not. i feel empty. i feel that my life is on a pause. it's not moving and
i'm waiting for something to happen. and although my cards say i
should do something about it, i can't. i can't get a move on. why?
i don't know.
which industry? which line of work? which way to get the money?
i care nothing for love. i care nothing about fame. i don't want to be
celebrated anymore. i've had that little taste and i don't like it. when
people start pawing at you, it's hard to turn it down and i hate, and
i've always hated being the bad guy.
perhaps it's my destiny. perhaps it's fate. still no clue.
but i'll take that chance. so many roads to walk. i'm not omni present.
i can't be at every place, doing everything. i'm not god, but still i play
that game.
'And they'll say told you so, we were the ones who saw you first of all,
we always knew that you were one of the brightest stars'
mother...father...help me. save me from the man i'm about to become.
